maryjane!

I went to Stephany's house last night, which is not uncommon, just to chill. I figured we'd sit in the sun and smoke a few bowls. Belen was going to come over later and we were all going to make soup. that sounded like a really fun evening to me. but of course this was not going to happen. Belen is pretty popular. she has a shit ton of friends who all want to hang out with her all the time. for a lot of people it was the last night of sping break, and they all wanted to do something. so naturally they all gathered at Steph's house. it was crazy. people were literally just coming out of nowhere.

a lot of them were people I hadn't seen in awhile and that was kinda... Idk. one of them was an ex bf of mine. it wasn't a long relationship, and it was a long time ago so that wasn't really a big deal. in fact, I had forgtten we even dated until he said something about it a few months ago. I like him, he's actually pretty cool. kind of a dick though...

when he saw me he openly laughed at me, which I respect him for. being laughed at by someone in person is a lot less painful than snickering behind people's backs. they think you can't see them, that you don't know exactly what they're doing. they don't have the courage to say it to your face so they do the next best thing. anyway....

sorry to get off topic... so anyways, another person that was there was Josh V. now that I think about it... I used to date him too. haha. that was only for like a week though. but I genuinely liked him. he was interesting to say the least. it's too bad nothing came of that... maybe it would have if it weren't for Robert. asshole... lol. but yeah. so we were talking and stuff and he sounded so nice and happy to talk to me. it was one of those look you in the eye convos. the kind that sort of melts your heart and leaves you ungaurded. I really hope to talk to him again.

I don't want to go back out with him or anything. not even sex. I just want to talk to him. maybe make-out a little. hahaha. it's not surprising that I feel that way though. I remember kissing him before quite vividly actually. he was a good kisser, and he tasted... sweet? it's hard to describe but I really liked it. kinda like one of those movie romance kisses. and we all know how fun those are. haha. so to be able to do that again sounds like a really good thing. lol.

so those are the highlights of last night. I could go on, but I don't want to bore you. haha.

deucesxxx