Maryjaneleaf's Journals

420

so Monday was 420, the only holiday meant just for stoners. I had to celebrate, of course. it was quite an eventful day, actually. I was at my friend Heather's sunday night and when the clock turned we started toking. we smoked until about 2 and then passed out. when I woke up I had to go work for my aunt, so I had to get up pretty early. as soon as she paid me I was gone though. haha. I went over to Stephany's and we waited for Jen to bring us some herb. Just as we finished smoking a j with her our friends Magen and Chris showed up. Jen had to leave though...

so we sat in Stephany's Kia and smoked a couple bowls and made a 420 special for our webshow. although this was fun we thought since this is what we do everyday, we should kick it up a notch. and so we did. we got some wine and some beer and some pizza and we sat and watched She's All That.

Magen had to go first, then Chris. once they were gone Steph and I took some more footage for our webshow. luckily we finished shooting just before 420 was over. we worked on the episode til we got about half way through, and then we went to the 24 hour Kroger down the street to get some pie.

and that was my 420 experience. I will post the episode within the hour for you all to watch.

peaceoutxxx

Stephany's

I went to Stephany's house last night, which is not uncommon, just to chill. I figured we'd sit in the sun and smoke a few bowls. Belen was going to come over later and we were all going to make soup. that sounded like a really fun evening to me. but of course this was not going to happen. Belen is pretty popular. she has a shit ton of friends who all want to hang out with her all the time. for a lot of people it was the last night of sping break, and they all wanted to do something. so naturally they all gathered at Steph's house. it was crazy. people were literally just coming out of nowhere.

a lot of them were people I hadn't seen in awhile and that was kinda... Idk. one of them was an ex bf of mine. it wasn't a long relationship, and it was a long time ago so that wasn't really a big deal. in fact, I had forgtten we even dated until he said something about it a few months ago. I like him, he's actually pretty cool. kind of a dick though...

when he saw me he openly laughed at me, which I respect him for. being laughed at by someone in person is a lot less painful than snickering behind people's backs. they think you can't see them, that you don't know exactly what they're doing. they don't have the courage to say it to your face so they do the next best thing. anyway....

sorry to get off topic... so anyways, another person that was there was Josh V. now that I think about it... I used to date him too. haha. that was only for like a week though. but I genuinely liked him. he was interesting to say the least. it's too bad nothing came of that... maybe it would have if it weren't for Robert. asshole... lol. but yeah. so we were talking and stuff and he sounded so nice and happy to talk to me. it was one of those look you in the eye convos. the kind that sort of melts your heart and leaves you ungaurded. I really hope to talk to him again.

I don't want to go back out with him or anything. not even sex. I just want to talk to him. maybe make-out a little. hahaha. it's not surprising that I feel that way though. I remember kissing him before quite vividly actually. he was a good kisser, and he tasted... sweet? it's hard to describe but I really liked it. kinda like one of those movie romance kisses. and we all know how fun those are. haha. so to be able to do that again sounds like a really good thing. lol.

so those are the highlights of last night. I could go on, but I don't want to bore you. haha.

deucesxxx

Universal Health Care

I can't wait. Obama had better fucking switch. I know there's a lot of talk about it and I'm excited. No more will we have to sacrifice for a simple check up. No more will we have to go without the medication we need, but can't afford. And that's just me and my mom. What about all the people who have no insurance at all? So many people are without the health care they desperately need and meanwhile the corporate fat cat insurance companies make more and more money off this nation's hard working citizens. Where is the justice? Where is the equality? Why should we have to pay $400 a month to be covered and STILL have to pay out of pocket for all things health related? THAT'S NOT FAIR.

So please Mr. Obama, help us. Help us all. We need this more than anything. So for now I'll wait. I'll wait patiently for the day when I can afford the medicine I need. For the day when I can breath easy knowing that if something bad were to happen to any of my friends or family they would be taken care of. And when that day comes do you know what I'll do? I'll march straight into the doctor's office and give them the long list of everything that I find peculiar about my body and demand an explanation for every single one.

Web Show

so I'm in the process of making a web show. it's called the cannabis chronicles and it's about the stupidly funny shit people say when they're high. it's been slow going trying to get the first episode done but I think it's FINALLY finished. now all I have to do is sit and wait for Stephany to approve it and up on youtube it goes! lol.

I really hope people like/watch it. I've been advertising it for awhile and it would suck if it let everyone down. I want it to get popular so it can win a stoney award from high times magazine. they have a web show category. stoner of the year is my ultimate goal, but we all have to start at the bottom right? lol.

okay well... I'll give you all the link to my show's youtube where you can view a sneek peak (you can also view it here) and maybe subscribe to my channel? check back soon for the first episode. I'm hoping to have it up by tomorrow!

our youtube!

peace out girl scout

fan-fucking-tastic

that's how I describe last night. I rolled my fucking nuts off. it wasn't as much fun as the shit we took last weekend but rolls is rolls. haha. we didn't really do shit, just kinda hung around the house. I drank a whole lot of fucking orange juice though. no colds for me any time soon. ha.

savannah and her little friend conner (who is a girl btw) did some with us. they took half a roll. me and heather took ours and their other halves. and we smoked quite a bit of weed. I was just feeling good as a mutherfuck.

listened to guilty pleasure by cobra starship! lol. that was fun. it would have been better if Heather liked the song too, but you can't have everything.

so all in all, I had a great night.

peacexxx

ps. check out my web show

Gee, thanks DAD

so my dad fucked up again. I'm not entirely sure what he did this time. he called me the other day to bitch about how something went wrong with his phone and blah blah blah. typical dad drama. but today I find MY phone has been cut off as well as both his and his girlfriends (she's on our plan). idk what to do about this. he doesn't have a home phone. I have no idea how to get in touch with him. I sent him an email, but I know he only checks it once every couple of weeks and I know he checked it like last monday or something...

ARGHH! my one true joy in life is now gone. SO many people have that number. how is anyone supposed to call or text? how am I supposed to tweet? my phone was stolen a little while back and the person erased all the numbers in there and I was counting on people calling ME. what do I do??

outx

you know what I hate?

my computer. URRGH! that strange noise is the one I make when I am enraged, like now. URRRRGH!!

so I was working on this graphic and it was super awesome and I was SOOO proud of it, and when I ex'd out of a window from my design software it ex'd out of the whole program! all my work is GONE! I know I should have saved as I went but I didn't think that far. I mean I'm high pretty much all the time, how am I supposed to remember that? well I'll tell you this for free, I will never let this happen again.

THIS IS BULLSHIT!

notpeaceoutxx

I really fucked myself over

yup. see, I dropped out of high school and got my GED. don't get me wrong, I don't regret it in the slightest, but... I'm trying to go to college. not all schools care what kind of diploma you have and it was my plan to go to one of those. I didn't want to do anything special, I didn't want to BE anybody, you know? well I can go to a school for free, but the problem is it's an art college. I never had much of an interest in going before. but it's FREE. I know I can't afford college and I REALLY don't want to take out student loans, and I AM artistic, but... I have a very bad track record. haha. on the application they ask if you have ever been suspended or expelled from an educational institution. that would be fine if after they didn't follow up with a nice "you need to send in a paper with the approximate date(s?)" I'm not sure exactly what they want, but if they want all of it then I am FUCKED in the ass. I've got a really long history of trouble making. what am I gonna do if they ask for ALL dates? there's NO FUCKING WAY they'd take me after that. I was suspended like every other week in sophomore year.

now the only shot I have is to score BIG on the ACT. don't get me wrong, standardized tests are kinda my thing, but I've been out of school for like a year now and even when I was IN school I never did shit. I failed half my classes. I never payed attention. now I have to learn four years of high school math in a month. so yeah, I really fucked myself over with this one. I'm not TOO worried because I know I'm smart enough to pull it off, but what does worry me is the fact that I'm lazy as a mutherfuck. and I'm just as forgetful as I am lazy. dangerous combo! throw in a depressive funk and you've got one hell of a train wreck comin at ya.

AHH! WHAT DO I DO???

maryjanexxxxxxx

help!

so I'm looking for some inspiration for new graphics. I'm working on two right now but I'm stuck.

one is a Cobra Starship wallpaper, and the other is a Stephen Colbert banner. Cobra and Colbert need brushes and Colbert needs some stock images. if you know where to get some good ones could you tell me?

also, I want to start a new project but Idk... I was thinking something unicorn. what do you think?

I <3 suggestions/feedback!

peacexxxxxxxxx

I miss my best friend...

I miss her a lot. she moved away not too long ago and it's been hard to deal with. she was my life. we spent all our time together and now I'm all alone. without her I'm just me.

although it's really only been about a week since we had a real conversation, that's a lot for me. we saw each other everyday. I never had to wait to tell her anything. when she left I had a lot more free time. that's where the photo editing and this blog come into play. new hobbies mean less time to think about the sad stuff.

I would feel a lot better if she read this blog, just cuz these are all the thoughts that I would have told her if she were here.

idk... it didn't really bother me much before because I was keeping busy and also cuz I was going through a "manic phase." see I'm bipolar. anyone who has bipolar disorder knows what I'm talking about. I was practically impenetrable. but now I feel the depressive phase rearing it's ugly head again. I hate this part. I'm going to be so depressed and useless for who knows how long. depression always lasts longer. I really don't want to go there again. but there's nothing I can do to stop it. I really really don't want to go there. sigh.

I just miss her, that's all. I'm going to smoke some pot and pass out.

peaceyallx